It’s scary, but exhilarating, to go to that blank space, that free fall, where new ideas, new inquiries, can find form and be explored and delineated. Sometimes, it feels like you’re in a dark pit, and there is no way forward, no way out. Nothing you do is making this piece work, everything you try, you just slide right down into the pit again. And then, boom, something happens, and it’s working, at least, you think it’s working, and it can be anything that catalyzes that change. And the world is full of light again.
It’s always a struggle, there is always conflict—synthesizing what you know and have experienced, and moving forward to what it is you don’t know and the future with all its possibilities. And, all the while, having to make micro and macro decisions at every turn. And they are not all going to be the “right” decisions, but that’s ok.